I have recently been perusing the blog world. There is one blog I follow called Rainbow After the Storm. It is about a woman that has lost three babies through two pregnancies. All of them were girls. She now has a healthy son and is doing very well. I've never commented on her blog just always watched her journey from a far ever since I was pregnant with my own twins. Today I decided to checkout the blogs she reads. They are of other women and their losses through pregnancy. It is heartbreaking to think people have gone through such pain.
One ladies blog I came upon had lost her most recent son at 23 weeks gestation on May 31, this year. She had lost twin boys the previous year. One of her posts talked about how because of the losses she has now lost her faith in God but still believes there is a heaven.
I have never lost a baby at 23 weeks gestation before so I have no idea what pain she is feeling or how hard it must be to just get out of bed in the morning. I do know that true atheists do not believe in heaven. It is a wonderful idea. And I wish with all my wishes that she could have a place to meet up with her lost babies when she has gone as well but sadly I know this will not happen. And it makes me sad.
This woman is angry with God for taking her babies. I would be too if I had faith. But anger is not the way to make the appropriate decision of whether or not God exists or not. The simple fact that she believes in heaven shows that she wants to hold onto something higher than her self. I wish her the best and I do hope one day she will have a healthy baby.
This story also shows how beliefs can come and go with the mood you feel in that day, month, year, and so forth. This simple fact that you can declare that you don't believe in God yet believe in heaven proves yet again that human imagination is responsible for God and all the things that go with that idea. You can not one day decide to believe that the earth is actually a triangle and is also the center of the universe. I guess you can but the earth will still be a sphere and it will still revolve around the sun no matter how much you "believe" the contrary.
To all the women who have lost babies. Please know my heart aches for you and that I hope that life will be better to you in the future.
-Megan Austin
2 comments:
Megan,
Very thoughtful post. It is true that King David of the Old Testament had the same hope that the woman in your blog had who believed in heaven. When he and his wife lost their baby at birth, He said, you remember, "The child shall not return to us but we shall be with the child one day."
I agree with your comment here.."The simple fact that she believes in heaven shows that she wants to hold onto something higher than her self." That desire SEEMS to be prevelant in every society. Some would call it the "God-shaped vacuum in every person."
But whatever one believes about things like that, I believe you have expressed a real heart for hurting people. I like that a lot. Not everyone has it.
Compassion is what makes us human. And all I can is say is I love being human.
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